Saturday, January 26, 2008
ReaL BreaKdOWN! sAd!
The clock keeps on ticking and the minutes to 2 o clock is getting lesser n lesser n nearer n nearer ... ok when the clock show 2 pm .. its time ... open the website of www.seab.gov.sg .... scared ... but i opened it ... and logged in my friend first cos he working and nO time to see ... so i opened his first n found out he got C5 for english .. well .. he made it .. but its his third try .. then next is my turn ... i type my IC n password in .... well i was realli nervous ... i closed my eyes n pray to God ... when i open my eyes i saw the word 'E' with a 8 beside ... by that time i alreadi fallen apart alreadi ..cos 1 year on this n i canNot make it ... then next min ... which i find it irritated is telephone call from aunties n uncles .. told them abt it but they say why? nv work hard??? where got to mood to take to them ... after their phone call hoping to have a quiet corner for me to think n settle my mood n feelings ... BUT!! NO .. next call was from niap ... didnt wan to pick it up cos i find this totally all too irritated by nvm ... we are friends n picked it up n told them i fail ... then next more friends called in ... some didnt believe my words n wan me to gif them my account to log in to see my results .. and of coz surprise them as HOW could i score an 8 again ... well .. i oso DUNNo ... I did my best ... study n DO a lot of revision n comprehension still the result nv move up ...it Broke my day n i was totally no mood ... sec school friend who took the results that day called me ask me ... well they too fail .. they called me to GO out to discuss wad is the next step ... i wasnt like feeling to GO out .. but staying at home oso make me sad ... so best is to decide my next step ...
and i have made the decision of taking higher nitec or private diploma or DAE see How or NS??? all this came to my mind ... ok let discuss how i did ... well i thought of NS first ... since NS let me defer ... i shall take the opportunity to defer it then later NS so to earn a higher nitec cert (a higher education qualification) before going in to NS ... then after NS still can straight GO study poly ... then second i thought of DAE ... so i shall try my luck on DAE again ... third private diploma ... well though have the money to GO for it .. but i think its a bit rush n its ex ... No discount for bus fare nor laptop ... so last resolution ... Higher nitec ... i have to aim well n high in here in order next time when i out from NS i can GO poly ...
other stress i got: taking car liscene ...he has been urging me to take cos heard from my neighbour cos he is a instructor to teach ppl how to drive that next time the future the test for driving is getting harder ....
Ok! i veri sure this year new year wont be a gd one .. why?? relatives are GOIng to ask n say me!! worse to my mum side ... they sure ask how ur studies, Girlfriends .. this two thing is cfm that they sure ask me .. though they wont object me that ITE is lousy But rmb ITE had helped ppl to get a job n is reported in newspaper... haiz
i should have GO in last year n take eng test as well But My sis Doesnt let.. thus i now wasted 1 year n glory n one year older ... haiz .. since the god wan me to take a longer route to reach the level of destination where most ppl will GO .... i shall take it ... though it take a longer time ...it can let me take things slowly!!
my friend console me on the phone ... which i wish to thank them veri much ... esp terry n kim ... best buddies .... they say dun be so sad or emo .. fail fail lo , wad the big deal ... still we can still able to work in the market But juz the price is lower ...
Note: i wish U Know i sad Now .. maybe ur words can make me better ... But i know U nv talk to me ... cos of that incident ... should i say u petty ? i oso DUNNO ... cos it all misunderstanding ... is it all over now ??? i DUNNo ... maybe some one might bring us tgt ... but it might take long cos even a big hole need cement to fill it up but it need to take days for the cement to truly harden and take the shape of the hole ... maybe sumone might fill the Hole ... But mine ... u broke the key to enter ... i duNNO whether to make U the new key to let u re enter or i shall change new lock n gif U new key ... i DUNNo ... i duNNo to think nor talk abt it ... cos everithing that happen it totally unreasonable .... maybe that why ppl always gals are always petty n unreasonable???? haiz
once again ... i have nth to say much .. but hoping this blog say everithing ... i shall look forward in life ... cos u have fall down once but nv give up for crawling to stand up cos if Not the route canNot be finish ... i shall be successful ...
ok end here , cos the time now is 3.56 am
posted by yjlevia at 3:24 AM
