Tuesday, September 15, 2009
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sometime ... i wonder my dad is he a magnanimous person? .... hmm ... sometimes i feel that small matter he also will quarrel for it .... well ... why he cannot be forgiving in life? if not... isnt there be more stress? well ... seeing my dad quarreling with my mum over a small matter is a veri tedious thingy to watch .... some time i realli wonder ... why i being the smallest in the family get to watch all this scenario? whereas my sis wont get to see this scene ... some time i realli realli hope to work now and get a home for myself .... becos w/o me .... dinner today will not be a quarrel le ... juz becos of the soup is not hot ... he argued .... if i not here today ... isnt that better? cos they might settle their dinner outside ... haiz ... well ... life is like that ....sometimg i feel neglected .... because i cant get a listening ear ..... ppl older than me told me that the best ear in the world is ur partner for life .... well ... i dunno is it true .... but from wad i see .. they say seem to be true ... ur partner which is ur love .. understand u most .... they willing to share ur sorrow with u .. however ... whenever i have my own problems ... i cant get to share .. last time i have kaki like terry , jun chong .... now becos of work, studies .. it is veri hard to share my problems now .... =(
though i have piggy who is close to me ... but she also got her own problems .... hmmm .... sometime i feel that i can hear her problems and she can hear mine .... well .... when we are busy ... it is hard .. well .. ytd piggy was sad as i sms her .... she say to tell me wad is the problem next day but however .. nv reply me ... =( well .... maybe she might be busy ... maybe later she might tell me .. but no matter wad ... i realli muz say i miss u .... meeting piggy now is quite a task .... as she got work .... but im willing to wait .... becos i have understand this sentence that is "waiting is a blessful thing" ..... instead of thinking that waiting is a frustrated thing .. why not look at another angle .... i find that waiting can let me think a lot more .... make me more calm ....
well .... but still i still need a ear .. a ear which can listen to me ... a ear which can respond to me by caring for me .... well ... piggy .. i love u ... =)
well .... how come this post i typing like i leaving this world like that .... haha .. i also dunno .... seeing my mum immune system is getting weaker ... i tried my best to bring her joy ... like playing a fool with her to see her happi .... well .... i dunno wad to say ... but i have more problems then joy .... i realli need a partner .. whom i love and can listen to me ...
well ... i decided to stop blogging from now on ... till i find back my feel again .. probably a day? .. a week? ... a month? .. a year?????? who knowS????? i feel myself veri far now!!! piggy .. can pei wo?
posted by yjlevia at 8:11 PM
