Thursday, September 16, 2010
SerIous thoughts
hi blog ....or maybe ... i shall say hi life ...
haha ... how long i nv been visiting my self diary to type wad i thinking and wad i feel ....
well ... have been talking to my friends as they share with me abt their problems ... well .. did my best to help them out ....
indeed thinking of helping them ... u can image u forget abt helping urself ....
life is like that ... we are ready to help friends .. but we tend to neglect ourselves when we forget that we also should help ourselves ....
well ... a failure in the past build us stronger down the road ....
yeap ... with reference to wad i have say in fb .....
"after some thoughts ... if "that thing" happen to be a failure in my life ... i will move on to be successful for future ... to be stable for future and care no more abt surrounding le ... having seen some friends rushing for it and they taught me abt being stable ... until that time comes ... ppl might say im changed .. i might take things more seriously ... but my memorable wont be lost!!! juz that it take a lot of courage ...."
yup .. i given some thoughts abt "that thing" .... after seeing it popping out so many times on fb ... if touch wood its a failure ... i will move on to be successful for life .... yes to be stable ... for rainy days ... earn to be stable to buy myself things and wad are my wants ... i may even treat friend occasionally ... BUt ... i might change .. ppl will say i have change ... change to be neglecting them .. might seldom go out with them .... yup ... christopher and some of my friend have told me abt starting to find income .. be stable ... some even ask me to help them in their website they invest ... i help them too ... like christopher .. my korean and sg friend ... ya .. if good of coz bound to have some interest from him ... we have been in a gd r/s since we worked tgt ....
yup... maybe that time i have change if "that thing" reall happen ... of coz touch wood ... cos i dun wish to ... if it happen .. i will move on ... though it might be hurtful ... i might feel D _ _ _ _ _ _ D!!! but i have to accept it ... i will change for better .. but i will start to heck care abt the surrounding ... cos i dun wish to in contact ... yea .. maybe sometime alone ... yea ... it will take me a lot a lot of courage to move on .... and not going to touch on that "that thing" again until i settled down ... i dunno why i have this though ... i also dunno how come i got the energy to carry on for now for "that thing" ... maybe god gave me that .... might be telling me to stay patient and it will be urs ... well .. i dunoo ... maybe i might be harsh to say the above quotes ... but i cant help it .... ppl might salute to me abt " that thing" .... yeap ... thanks ... i veri loyal to "that thing" ... yea .. i treat it seriously ... no jokes .. cos it is relevant to my future my road .... last time we might be taking "that thing" as some sort of trying out .. but as we grow up ... we have to change this thinking .... cos we one day should will not be young anymore .... by that time .. parents cannot alway be with us .... the road down there we have to walk down ourselves ....
yup it is not easy ... not easy to walk alone ... and not easy if u have been hurt ... but that life ... but wad we human can do is hope ... hope for things to happen ... pray .. pray hard that miracle comes ur way ... as time goes by ... we longer young ... we have to think otherwise .... life can be full of colors ... but life can be dull in times ... time is precious and wait for no man .... a carrer person will understand that no time can be wasted ....
well ... its time ... time to be stable .. be ready for rainy days .....
till here .... i seem to be moving to adult tinking .... i did some self reflection and this is wad i tot of today ....
posted by yjlevia at 2:16 AM
